Change. She is a Comin'.

Workout: 45 minutes interval training

Today was the first day that I seriously considered what I want to do next. As you may have gathered, I am very unhappy at my current job. I am overqualified for what I do (secretary/receptionist). I am under-utilized and unvalued. This is painful for me.

I'm really good at a lot of things. This was a problem even going back to applying for programs before college. I loved writing, and I was really good at math and science. I decided to go the science route because writing didn't seem like a viable career option.

Pre-med turned in to biology turned in to psychology turned in to higher ed. Nine months ago, I thought higher ed was going to be it for me. The pay and benefits are decent (once you move up-mine aren't), vacation time is great (if you're salary-I am not) and you get to work in a college without being in academia (which I hated).

Now, being devalued as I am, I am considering a major career change. But the prospect of going back to school or ending up exactly where I am now, but at 30 instead of 25 terrifies me.

But, nonetheless, I can only be this miserable for so much longer. So I must explore my options. Right now I'm looking into health and fitness options. Fitness is the only thing that has made me consistently happy (apart from B) since high school.

Maybe that's the answer. Maybe it's not. But I am terrified to end up where I am now again. Terrified.

It happened with grad school, and now it's happened with my first full-time job. I need to remind myself over and over again, that at least I have a job. Good things must be coming. Power of positive thinking.